Wednesday, January 31, 2007

What Is Your Greatest Fear?

This is a question that everyone in the world should ask themselves. Then, they should question why.

***What is MY GREATEST FEAR? WHY?***

My GREATEST fear is...I actually have three, but I beleive that they are linked. My first is fear ITSELF. Second, rejection. And third, confrontation.

I fear..FEAR! I fear it because it leaves me in a very vulnerable state. I feel like there is nothing I can do, and all power is lost to just "BE" or exist, love, seek happiness, or purpose.

I am terrified of rejection. I avoid it at ALL costs. Rejection hurts!! And it's not a specific type of rejection...ALL REJECTION!! It hurts my heart, makes me feel like less of a person. As if I'm worthless.

Confrontation...I used to start it, so I have to laugh at how it's a fear of mine now. Confrontation normally involves yelling, anger, cursing, and crying....AVOIDANCE!! I make it a point not to walk into confrontation. If I am aware of the possibility of it coming, I RUN....MAD DASH!!!

These are my fears mainly because of how I grew up, past and present relationships, and my reaction or lack of.
Society, or "THE MAN", can't be blamed for everything, although it would be easier to shift the blame.
It's because at some point I shifted my faith in God, and decided to do it on my own.

My lesson....I can't do it!! God CAN!! He is my Provider and my Deliverer. I have no need to fear! I will not fear! I will simply call on Him...and He WILL be there!

I leave you with a quote from the late Rosa Parks...(Please take Heed!)

"God did away with all my fear."

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